Self Pity, Self Loathing

I should never have been born,

               I am an aberration.

                             I am a failed abortion

                                           a mistake for the ages

Serpent's rain waters fall from the sky

               flooding uncontrollably my pained eyes

                           on the blood-stained Cross I cry

                                              Eden, Blood, Divinty, Flood

"Why hath thou forsaken me?"
             
             

Murmur

Serpentine Stars slither
 
        'cross the sky of night
 
the Swan laughed,
 
         the Hunter cried,
 
                     and Leo the Great just died
 
...what is suicide but self-inflicted abortion?